Anxiety & Medication: You Are Not Broken

Exploring The Three Principles with Sarie Taylor

I was having a good clear out this weekend as we have a skip in the garden so I thought it was a great time to tackle ‘the’ cupboard! (Do you have one of those cupboards?) Its where Santa usually hides presents in our house, and the way it was before I tackled it, he would have turned around and never came back.

During my clear out I found a small leather bag, that I hadn’t used for many many years, and before I moved it I thought I best check inside as I have a habit of finding all sorts of valuables in bags I forgot all about!

All that was inside were some tablets, propranolol.

There was a time where these more valuable to me than ANYTHING.

It was a funny moment because I had a flash back to many years ago when I wouldn’t go out of the house without taking beta blockers out with me ‘just in case’.

When I was hospitalised in my early 20s with anxiety I was heavily medicated.

I am not against medication, I have taken it many times and would take it again if I felt I needed to, but what I do have an issue with is when medication is the only thing on offer.

I had no idea how I was ever going to be able to come off it. I was on and off medication for many years after that, and it felt that if I didn’t stay on it, I would go back to feeling anxious and depressed again.

Again please do not misunderstand this as me saying there is no place for medication, BUT we also need understanding to move forward.

This isn’t even necessarily to stop the medication (if you or your GP feels you would be better on it) it's more so that you see that you are not broken and that your mind and body will naturally reset.

Going back to the bag.

The time when I carried medication around just in case, I was so ashamed and felt so broken. That medication represented so much for me at the time.

That I wasn’t resilient and capable of going out without it.

That in order to live my life in any way, I had to have a back up (meds) to keep me sane just in case I lost it!

None of this was true and I see this now.

When I saw that medication my mind instantly went to ‘wow you couldn’t go anywhere without those’ and for a fleeting moment I remembered how ‘broken’ I was... until a second later when I realised ‘wow look how different I am now AND I was never broken in the first place, I just thought I was’.

Whether you are on medication or not, you can always access more peace of mind with an understanding of what it means to be human, therefore reducing the rumination, negative self talk and the way you see yourself.

I know this to be true because there was a time when I was so severe not only did I have those propranolol, but I also had diazepam too, and I was able to get full relief from those overwhelming and often dark times.

I have also worked with hundreds of others who have too.

My new understanding that I have now been exploring for nearly ten years has meant I was able to fully fall back in love with my life again.

This doesn’t mean having an exciting fun filled life (although it can be), but moreso it's not living in fear of my own human experience and knowing I am not broken.

YOU ARE NOT BROKEN.

I can show you why here in this free 60 minute video.

Nov 16, 2023 10:00am

By sarie taylor

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